Iam a German 40s/50s/60s Pin up Girl, Retro Addict and Weirdo. I love make up, to craft, do photoshootings and collect vintage clothes/ lingerie. In my blog you can read all about it, mashed up with my thoughts about fashion/styling.
I feel very futuristic writting the number 2011. It feels so far off, but we have to face it: It is just a few weeks away!!!
This year included many new and great things: My first appearance in a major editorial (including the big discussion arousing on the magazines website whether Iam not to skinny/normal sized to present something plus sized. I found that amusing.), my cat walk debut, my debut as extra in an commercial (I still wait for the release, I guess that will have to wait till 2011), debuting as a window display mannequin and a new full time job. It´s been a damn good year, though I was sick more often than usual an
d shooted less than in the previous years (than again - the longer you shoot, the more selective you become about who you WANT to shoot with).
I think I suck on the catwalk, though. Or at least I need more practice.
I want to do a lot more shootings in 2011 and I want to keep on doing things I never did before. At least the shooting might work out cause I have some stuff pending for January. Let´s hope it results in appointments :-) I badly wanna do something "Mad Men" inspired. But you know how it is when you wanna do something really really bad! It makes it unlikely to happen!
when I walked to the supermarket I passed by a store doing cute 50s neckholder dresses. As the owner knows my website she asked me to come along this Saturday and model one of her dresses. I sure said yes, an hour later we did the fitting and picked the perfect dress :-)
So if you are in the NRW area and have yet to make plans about your Saturday why not stop by and say hello?! The Adress is: DSigns, Friedenstr. 66 in Düsseldorf. I will be there from about 3pm to 6 pm or so beeing a part of the decoration and the nifty 50s inspired living room of the café situated next to it.
It is all for the event Voices of Fashion (http://www.voices-of-fashion.de/ or/and http://www.facebook.com/voices.of.fashion for the facebookers) and as I have never been to a fashion event I´m a tiny tiny bit nervous. But as I´m supposed to sit there and be pretty and ocassionally stroll around in the shop it should be fine ;-) There are even shuttle services driving you from one store/event to another, so you have no excuse NOT to come, shop, say hello to me and drink a coffee together. ;-)
a series of unfortunate events (is it obvious I hear the Lemony Snicket Audio books?) has led me to some thinking. I and my regular readers know that Iam far from perfect. Both as a private person and a model, but my intentions are allways the best. I rant sometimes :-)
I try to be kind even when I do not get kindness back. I reach out my hands in peace, but from somewhere out there comes a cosmic ruler and hits my fingers. Ouch! I look at this with surprise as it is senseless.
Sometimes, when someone hurts you or me, time heals and we are able to forgive. But the deal is: We can´t really forgive with all our heart when our counterpart isn´t regretting. Now my problem is that I do not want to hate anybody. To me hate is like poison. And I cannot understand when people that were mean and unfair to ME do not even take MY forgiveness. Worse: Attack me for me trying to forgive and beeing kind. And exactly THIS has happened recently. An attack for getting luggage off my back that someone loaded on me. Iam fortunate to say that there are few people with that I have problems anyway, but those lay on me like a burden.
But this is the dark side of it. Not everyone is like that. Some people are more reasonable. And we can talk like normal human beeings after some time passed and have no bad feelings anymore. And in the end we may not become friends, but we get along and respect each other. I think this is reasonable and a good developement.
Bitterness is a bad thing, but we all have it somewhere hidden inside us and we do not want it to take over and make us a akward person. Possibly it is too late for those that can´t even say that they are sorry? Maybe they are already so hard inside that they just look at people like me with sarcasm and even hate. They may try to hide that behind a mask of faked kindness cause convention tells them to. Maybe they think one of my kind is stupid for trying. Or they are scared of someone like that. I try hard to respect that, but I can´t respect them no matter how much I try.
But you know what? I´m a idealist! I´m a softie! And yes, probably I´m god damn naive, BUT I will stay exactly the way Iam. If you hurt me it´ll just bounce off and hit you instead because you miss a chance. Ok, it´ll hurt me a bit, too, but the major damage is within you. Honestly many of the things I´ll experience will add some more white hairs to my head. But I´ll try to see it positive: Once it´s all white I can stop to colour it and have a silver-white mane that never needs to have the roots touched up. :-D
I´m sorry for such a boring entry, but I had had to get rid of it. Another way to get rid of bitterness is not to deny it.
I´m not religious. But do you think there exist something like heaven? If there is, I imagine it to be like a good, lovely, universal hug. But we can´t be sure there´s heaven. Why not try to make it on earth? It is in our hands.
My dear, I will stay the best I can be. Allways. Promised. This is my new year resolution 2010
And the winner is... this one by Pretty Pinup featuring Miss Sue-Ann Davis.
We won´t be going out to party tonight. It´s just not our thing. Instead we will watch movies ("Arsenic and Old Lace" & "The Fearless Vampire Killers"), eat Sandwiches and drink Champagne. For the record: I haven´t been to a New Years Party for 6 years and I don´t feel like I miss something :-)
What´s up for 2010? At least: what do I know? I´ll be shooting a pretty Able Grable dress (hopefully soon) and I wait for the shooting dates for 3-4 planned shootings (including Alinka, Miss Giggles and my Snow Shooting is also still due :-). I HOPE for a little birthday vacation in January, but nothing is confirmed. The destination, as if the regular readers wouldn´t guess it... Stockholm. To me the Vintage Capital of Europe! I also look forward to the WKD sale in January and I really really safe hard so I can get... Everything :-D It is also year 6 (!!!) of my pin up career this May.
Do I have any resolutions for 2010? Yes. To shoot even more, to make more acessoires and outfits and I would totally love to make it on a magazine cover. I have been IN so many magazines, but never been ON one. If I manage this I´d be absolutely happy :-) If not... well, maybe 2011 ;-)
So and now I´ll unpack the lovely stuff I bought for sandwiches, including crabs and caviar-cream and other goodies.
Hope you all get into 2010 nice and safe! Hugs, Sari
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